Monday, January 18, 2010

My Public Declaration

To my friends and family: I love you and would never dream of doing anything to hurt you, but I love the LORD and seek to do His will.

Within the last couple of years, He has done a work in me. He has changed my heart and my way of thinking. Looking back, it is amazing to see the woman I was and the woman I am today. And it is by no means by my own powers, but of His.

I have discovered that God does exist and He lives. I have discovered that He came to earth and died for you and me. Jesus Christ came to live a sinless life, the life I could NEVER live, to save my wretched soul.

"What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God--through Jesus Christ our Lord!" Romans 7:24-25

Again, I am not here to condemn anyone, but I come here in humble prayer that those who read this come to know the God I know. The God of Abraham, the God of the bible. I am so blessed to have His love. I don't know why He calls me, but i humbly accept His word.

Galatians 1

Paul, an apostle—sent not from men nor by man, but by Jesus Christ and God the Father, who raised him from the dead— and all the brothers with me,
To the churches in Galatia:

Grace and peace to you from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ, who gave himself for our sins to rescue us from the present evil age, according to the will of our God and Father, to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen.

I am astonished that you are so quickly deserting the one who called you by the grace of Christ and are turning to a different gospel— which is really no gospel at all. Evidently some people are throwing you into confusion and are trying to pervert the gospel of Christ. But even if we or an angel from heaven should preach a gospel other than the one we preached to you, let him be eternally condemned! As we have already said, so now I say again: If anybody is preaching to you a gospel other than what you accepted, let him be eternally condemned!

Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ.

I want you to know, brothers, that the gospel I preached is not something that man made up. I did not receive it from any man, nor was I taught it; rather, I received it by revelation from Jesus Christ.

For you have heard of my previous way of life in Judaism, how intensely I persecuted the church of God and tried to destroy it. I was advancing in Judaism beyond many Jews of my own age and was extremely zealous for the traditions of my fathers. But when God, who set me apart from birth and called me by his grace, was pleased to reveal his Son in me so that I might preach him among the Gentiles, I did not consult any man, nor did I go up to Jerusalem to see those who were apostles before I was, but I went immediately into Arabia and later returned to Damascus.

Then after three years, I went up to Jerusalem to get acquainted with Peter and stayed with him fifteen days. I saw none of the other apostles—only James, the Lord's brother. I assure you before God that what I am writing you is no lie. Later I went to Syria and Cilicia. I was personally unknown to the churches of Judea that are in Christ. They only heard the report: 'The man who formerly persecuted us is now preaching the faith he once tried to destroy.' And they praised God because of me."

I have found that God has taken me from where I was, in an awful depraved state to where I am today. I am by no means perfect, but I have been born a Child of God. He has called me and made me one of His own.

I am but a humble servant of the Lord. I want only to do His will and further His Kingdom. I have been blessed to have come to this point in my life. I have many family and friends who have lead me here. I come not to condemn you or your beliefs but to share with you the love I have received from Christ himself.

Again, my upbringing has lead me to this point and for that I am eternally grateful, but I move forward with the love of Christ and move past false doctrines and forward onto the perfect and correct Word of God.

"Every word of God is flawless; he is a shield to those who take refuge in him." Proverbs 30:5

" The law of the LORD is perfect, converting the soul; The testimony of the LORD is sure, making wise the simple. " Psalm 19:7

"The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; My God, my strength, in whom I will trust. " Psalm 18:2

On Sunday, I was baptized into the family of Christ. What a glorious day it was!


  1. Nicole,

    To know you as a friend and sister in Christ has been one of the most significant blessings on my life.

    You are a beautiful person and having watched you transform over the past 5 years has been truely incredible.

    It's fun to read your blog and your public declaration is beautifully written. Remember to always stand faithfully in Christ. As long as we do His will, the reactions of others is God's problem, not ours. Just keep praying for them :) Love you!

  2. Nicole,
    I know this is a year ago, but's a great testimony! It's tough feeling rejected because of one's faith, but it's also wonderful to know of the rewards for "not being ashamed of the gospel."

    Love you,